Aging gracefully...HA.

I hate that every time I look in the mirror I see new wrinkles popping up around my eyes and lines stretching across my forehead. I hate that when I look at myself in the mirror I feel like my boobs are closer to my waist or maybe my waist is closer to my boobs. Either way it sucks. I wear more lotions and potions now then I ever did in my 20's to try an reverse the hands of time. I will always remember when a close friend who is a few years older then me hit 35 and told me she starting using anti aging cream at night...I being only 33 was shocked because I hadn't quite hit that stage of reality yet. But don't you know that when I hit 35 I started the nightly regimen. Only recently I have started wearing more makeup too. For years I hardly wore any at all but now if I don't put it on I feel less then attractive. The big question is who is actually judging my attractiveness?? I am sure it isn't any of the women that I know personally because they are all busy judging their own sags and wrinkles as harshly as I am judging my own.
I think the hardest part of this whole aging thing is the fact that I still feel like I am 20 and when I picture myself in my head I see the young smooth me but then I step in front of the mirror and I see the real now me. I love myself inside so much more now than at 20. I am sure of myself and my thoughts and beliefs. I would certainly NEVER want to be 20 again unless of course I could have the inside ME from now and the outside ME from then...that would be perfect. Too bad life doesn't work that way!